July 31, 2008
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For the past week, I haven't been able to sit still. I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!
I am seriously turning into a hateful person. According to all my American friends here, anytime you live here, you start to hate everyone and everything between the 1st and 2nd years.
Robyn and I decided that if we don't get out of here soon, we'll become two of the angriest, bitterest, rudest, most hateful and sullen people on earth.
Thank GOD for vacations!
To Do list:
1. sleep in my own bed past 6 am
2. eat sour cream
3. chug down a root beer float
4. avoid all things korean
5. never watch an inane tv show where korean celebrities compete in stupid games like running across a stream with a bucket of water on their heads.
-speaking of korean celebrities, can i say just how incredibly sick of them i am? OVEREXPOSED TO THE 1 GABILLIONTH DEGREE!
6. eat a white peach that costs less than 3 dollars.
7. gorge myself on mexican food
8. hit the beach many many times
9. go to a couple angels gamesi am seriously crying here! i need to be out of korea RIGHT NOW! five months here is just too too too too long!
Thank you mia and kevin for getting married in october so that i dont have to stay in korea for 4 straight months! THANK YOU!!!!!!
The figure at the bottom is mia.Now that it is over, I will confess that I had a crush on a korean guy : ) No longer, but it was there for a couple of weeks.
aahhhhh... i feel purged of a dirty sin.i haven't had a crush in a long long time, and i blame the serious dearth of good guys in korea who are not related to me for my indiscretion ie. my crush.
it's been so hot lately that i haven't had much of an appetite, which is quite an astounding occurrence. i've been drinking cold milk for dinner instead. which means that when i eat anything else, my body automatically stores it all as fat. yay.
So many people keep urging me to stay in korea. my boss told my aunt that I should live in Seoul and make a career as a professor at Seoul National University. in response, i smile politely, but my gut is shouting "HELL NO!!!!"
As I learned during my one day as an accountant
financial comfort, job security, societal respect... they all mean nothing if i'm miserable. of course, i might change my tune when i can't find a job in california and i'm an unemployed bum. but honestly, i don't want to live each day thinking only about the future and the happiness it may or may not bring. i want a fulfilling, rewarding life now. as much as i love teaching my awesome students, i don't know if i want to do it for another year.perhaps i could make the "best of things", just take a deep breath and suck it up and be happy, but maybe a part of growing up is understanding what and where is best for you holistically. as many of you who have spoken with me in the past few months can attest, i don't think korea is the place for me. not when i've become such an intense ball of anger.
speaking of students, i had my last book club meeting with my three boys yesterday. i was SO SAD! they are just three wonderful, intelligent, kind, polite, and honest, and just greatest guys i've met here! i teared up when we were saying bye
they're all going to college in the states soon (NYU, Duke, and Northwestern) and i know they'll do great, but i was still a little sad.so, the books we read together... i liked all of them so much! and if you have some time, i highly recommend all of them!
1. freakonomics
2. moon palace by paul auster
3. the bluest eye by toni morrison
4. the things they carried by tim o'brien
5. the glass menagerie by tennessee williams (i REALLY LOVE THIS PLAY!)
6. Mother Night by Vonnegut
7. beneath the wheel by herman hesse
8. the crucible
9. anthem by ayn rand
10. fahrenheit 451
11. flowers for algernon (ONE OF THE BEST!)
12. the picture of dorian gray by oscar wilde
13. Night by elie wieselPLEASE! someone make time go by really fast so that it'll be monday right now and i'll be boarding a plane to come home! hurry up monday!!!! i'm melting here!!!
Comments (5)
oh man, esther!!! cali will definitely be a great place for R&R! you need it! and the weather is awesome here! it's a tad overcast but it gets pretty bitchin' later on in the day. hooorayyy you'll be here soon!!!! i can't wait!!!! and that picture of mia is fantastic.
esther! yay you'll be home soon! korean krush!? you must tell us about this lucky guy
i'm counting the days too, esther! oh - no more crush, huh?
can't wait to see you!!!!!
poor you! hope you get some yummy mexican food back at home. i read flowers for algernon in high school...then we watched movie which was weird.
what and where is that pic of mia??? I wonder. I was in Korea for less than 2 months and I thought about mexican food ALOT. Love that stuff.
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